Ramblings...

The best thing about being in Avenged Sevenfold is...

Matt: Touring the world with my best friends
Brian: Being able to play guitar for a living
Zacky: Having the chance to write music that so many people love
Johnny: Always having an excuse for my terrible behaviour
Jimmy: Not being in jail


Is everyone else blind?

It's the happiness that drowns all other negative emotions. The security that you provide. The anger in me because you're the only one who sees the hurt. The questions. How do you know? Why don’t they all know? The truth, I realize, is that no one else looks close enough to see what you saw.
Why can’t they all be like you?



If you talk, you better walk

I don't understand why people will tell you that they don't like you, then refuse to tell you why. I mean, I don't care if you don't like me. It doesn't bother me, really. The problem is not that I care what people think, but I do care why they think it. Did I do something to hurt them? Did they hear something that isn't true? What if they just have the wrong idea about the type of person I am? A lot of my best friends today thought I was a horrible person at first. I'm not gonna lie, I am absolutely horrible with first impressions. If you have a legitimate reason as to why you don't like me, I understand, and I'm not obsessed with attention. It's not like I'm the type of person who has to have as many friends as possible, but I do feel better if people give me a chance. I'm not a bad person.



That's what hurts the most

There’s nothing more painfully enraging than realizing just how badly a person hurt you, and how little that means to them. Knowing that they’re moving along so swiftly, when they know how fucking miserable you are, and they’re probably just laughing with all of their friends about how pathetic you are. I think that’s why I get so mad sometimes. It's knowing that they clearly see how much they hurt me, and knowing that they’ll just pass it off as me being melodramatic,stupid and manipulative. It happens to everyone at some point. And there's always someone who caused it; someone who doesn't care.