...I don't know.
I love how today is only a snow day because we live in the south and have no idea how to handle snow. People up north have like a foot and a half and nothing is closed... I wonder what would happen if it snowed in Florida. Everyone there would probably be expecting the zombie apocalypse or an alien invasion or something because that just DOESN'T happen.
Anyways. Today is going to be a good day, at least that's what I'm hoping for. made chocolate chip pancakes for breakfast. Name a better way to start a day. You can't? I didn't think so. I might be going to Zack’s to help him build a snow pig. We’re going to name him Charlie. Tonight is also church and Ghost Hunters night. I might to to church but I’m not too sure. If I do go I'll probably go to First Baptist unless Perry can't go or doesn't want to, in which case Harvest it is.
"It's Kingsley, Bitch" is the best Youtube channel ever. I watched it until about four in the morning last night. "There's so many Youtube videos, I wonder where they put it all, because it's just so much information. I mean, where do they put all of that information? Do they put it in the ocean? I hope not. We put enough bad things in the ocean." Oh Ellen, you inspire me.
Oh well, moving back a few days, I thought that I had really torn up that audition, and I got first chair last year, so I wasn't expecting to make fourth and not even receive a callback. But here's how it played out - I got first chair last year, Luke got second, and Rachel got fourth. We were an extremely happy little oboe family. This year, I got fourth, Luke got fifth, and Rachel got seventh (I think). So this only means one thing, that some freshmen came in and just raped the auditions, blowing everyone else out of the water. Oh well. I wasn't planning on making All-state anyways, so the fact that I didn't make a callback doesn't bother me too much. Hopefully I'll be in the same band as Luke and Zack and it should be really fun.
On that note, I think I'll move into the more personal part of the post. I just have a lot to think about lately, and I guess I'm stupid, but when it comes to things like this, I'm never sure whether or not I should use my head or just play things by ear. In these situations, do I try to control the outcome or do I just go with the flow? It all leads back to The Butterfly Effect, which is why I chose this name for my blog. If I try to control everything, then the butterfly effect takes control and I go insane trying to control what isn't in my hands. If I just let it go, then things hardly even go the way I hope. Is it always me who chokes in these situations?
I guess this is another question that I have to answer first.
When it comes to forgiving people, where do I have to draw the line? When do I finally have to say "Okay, you've had your chances. You've just done me too much wrong."? I try to be as forgiving as I possibly can, but I can't seen to determine how many chances is enough chances. I have a hard time deciding who I should trust, and I'm always just so afraid that something will go terribly wrong.
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